Hey world!
Ahh it feels so
weird to be writing this post. Because I pre-write most of my posts (and last
week I cheated), I havent actually wrote anything in like a month. I still have
some pre-written posts that I could post, but this week I felt like I had the
inspiration to, and since this seems to be leading to be an inspirational blog
I though I can save them for future use.
Anyway, in this past week, I had done so much.
I have learnt so much, and discovered alot. I have travelled to cities I have
never been to before, I have had my 14th birthday, I have had my birthday
party, I have gone to a movie premiere, and eaten far too much chocolate. I
went on a plane for the first time in ten years, I have cried, both from
happiness and from sadness, and so much more that I just cant fit it into a few
sentences.
Tyler Oakley wrote a
book, as some of you may know, which is called Binge. I have not read the whole
thing as it is fourty dollars and I am not that rich, but while I was at the
airport I read the introduction. (it is actually a very good book that I hope
to get to read sometime.) It talks about how people love to tell others to live
their lives in moderation. To be proud but not too proud, to be loud but not
too loud, to be different but not too different, to think outside of the box
but dont think irrationally, and basically just to live a life full of harmony.
While I am not against harmony (obviously), I am against those things. Tyler
talks about how it is okay to binge on things. Maybe not eat 10 containers of
ice cream or do anything insanely dangerous, but do things like stand up for
what you believe in, spend hours doing what you love, and overall not being
afraid of things.
I actually love
this, and totally agree. It is so important to do what you love, and when you
do it, binge.
Go to the movies and
bungy jump and sign up for x-factor and learn to do a cartwheel and join a club
and travel wherever you can go. Run marathons, or just to pizza hut if that is
more your speed.
My point is
basically to just live your life, not just in moderation, but in DETERMINATION.
People think I am
insane when I jump in the puddles, and sing on the bus, and dance wherever I am
when I am excited. I played a game of twister right outside a cafe the other
day. There was also a group of people doing pilates to music who were staring at
me the whole time.
I am crazy, yes. I
am loud, yes. I am annoying, yes. I am passive agressive, yes. But you know
what? I am happy. I am doing what I love with the people what I love.
A week ago, I had a
panic attack, just thinking about getting older. I was thinking about how I am
not going to be able to achieve my goals before I die, and all I could think
about was how I was getting older. I was worring that before I knew it I would
be having my 40th birthday and life would have gone right past me. One of my
greatest fears is unhappiness, which makes no sense and is a vicious circle but
whatever I am a bit irrational like that. But now, I am starting to worry less
about it.
If I end up to be
fourty years old, and all I am doing is what I am doing right now, like being
with my friends, drawing funny people, making puns, and writing this blog, so
be it. The people and things that I have in my life make me so happy that if
this is all I achieve, I will call it a wild success of a life. My friends are
some of the best people I know, and make me the happiest version of myself
(most of the time anyway). My life isnt perfect, but nobody's life really is.
If you are surrounded with people you love, it is impossible not to enjoy life.
Even if you have a really crappy house and dont make much money and cant cook
anything to save your life, if you have the right people there, by no means is
that a bad life. Look for the kind of people who will love you and care for you
and bring you over chickflicks and ramen noodles, not the people who you are
always trying to impress.
So in conclusion,
live your best life, with the best people, doing the best things you possibly
can. Nothing will run smoothly, but that is okay. Nothing really ever does. But
if you look for the best, do the best, and surround yourself with the best, anything
can happen.
The socially
awkward, AKA Melissa xx
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