I will never stop drawing. For years people have told me and yelled at me and tried to purswade me to stop drawing on my hands. My dad was just telling me to stop a few minutes ago; I am not kidding i am literally always getting told off for it. Believe it or not, I do have a reason behind why I keep doing it anyway.
I will tell you those reasons now.
To me, the drawing on my hand is not just some ink that might poison me and the person or object that I have drawn. I pour my heart and soul into my drawings. When I show you a drawing, the nicest thing you can possibly do is tell me how much you love it. The thing I hate the most is people either saying 'cool' and moving on to something else, or telling me how I should fix it.
I know it might look crappy, but you dont need to tell me this. Right as I show you that drawing I have FAITH in myself. I believe that the drawing on my hand or sketch in my math book validates me, and although I might not know how to do the math equation we are studying and need help, I am not just a charity case or worthless because I can draw something that looks nice! I know this is twisted logic, but I swear that it is legitamitely how we think.
If you see someone with a drawing on their hand and you can tell that they have put effort into it, compliment them. It is seriously the best feeling ever. Even if we reply with "haha thanks but it is actually really bad.", I promise you that it will make that person feel 1086849275 times better about them and their art.
All of my art means something to me. If I draw a girl, that girl has a backstory. I know how many siblings she has and what job she has and what she represents to me. If I draw a bird or a plant it represents hope or freedom. If there are planets it means that I am sad and wish I could escape reality. All my drawings communicate how I feel. My drawings show that I am a living breathing human and that I can create something out of nothing.
All my artwork is a metaphor for something, which is why it makes me angry when people correct, get mad at, or make me get rid of my drawings. Sure, sometimes I dont mind washing off my drawings, but other days I need them.
Using markers and pens and ink on your skin may not be great for it, but it is actually my (and alot of other artists) alternative to self harm. If I am feeling really down and I am not feeling like I can cope with the world, I draw. This is why I am seen at school sometimes with drawings all over my thighs. I really dont want to get into all that stuff, especially because this is not what this blogpost is about. Now all my friends know this, and will probably judge me, but whatever. If this helps at least one person, that is good enough for me.
Maybe I dont have a thigh gap or long hair or a flat stomach, but I have a bomb-ass picture on my hands, and I can say that no one ever has, or will again in the entire history have that exact piece of amazingness on their bodies.
It makes me angry that teachers dont like drawing in students books and/or skin.
that is my school book. My parents paid for it, and everything in here I have written. You have no place in telling me what I should be able to do with my pens. This is my body, my skin, and me that you are hating on. I have used MY brain, and MY skills, amd MY talent, to create something I like on MY body. WHY DOES THIS AFFECT YOU??why should you have a problem with it? There are so many worse things that I could be doing!!
I know this all sounds ranty but art is so underestimated and it conveys so many different messages and shows people so many things.
Pablo Picasso puts it perfectly by saying "art should disturb the comfortable, and comfort the disturbed." If I was Picasso I wouldnt have to write six million paragraphs, I could just say those nine words. Alas, I am not Pablo, so instead you get the rant.
So when people ask me why I dont just stop drawing so I dont get told off, you might see why I cant just give them a sentence answer. Art is so finely grained into me and is so much part of my nature and soul, that it is like telling an author to stop writing or a athlete to stop running. It is like telling an accountant to stop adding numbers or a vet to stop caring about animals.
The way I see it, as long as I am completing all the requirements, and completing my work, why should that concern you? Why are you so concerned about me? Art makes me happy, period. If I am drowing in assignments and I draw a flower in the corner of my essay, please dont be mad. If you see someone with a doodle on their arm, dont get angry. We are all just trying to find some colour in this black and white world.
So anyway, that was this weeks rant. I hope you 'enjoyed' it? Also I am aware that the font is being all weird. Please someone let me know how I can fix this!
The socially awkward, AKA Melissa xx
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